Tough lesson

Today was interesting. I attended a meeting with my staff and felt a slight attack on me during the process. I was bombarded with feelings of disconnect, inadequacy and unfulfillment. I talked to Brad about it so that if there were any changes I needed to make, I could have a heads up as to what direction I needed to take to get there. What he had to say was helpful, for sure. My role in the meetings, as a part time staff member is less of a contribution to what we will do and more of a filter as to what not to do. I have a reaction-based role in the creation of excellence. As much as I enjoy brain-storming and creating solutions, I also have the ability to think outside the box for critique. I did not originally see that as a benefit or strength, but after being informed of its value, I can now appreciate and continue in the process with less tendency to give in to attacks.

We also discussed how I really enjoy being able to be a little more ahead of the planning process to not only brainstorm, but also to study so that whoever is speaking doesn’t have to go through an entire body of work, but have an efficient summary of points to build from. This could be studying the Bible in-depth, or other scholarly works or podcasts. I have recently taken up a love for reading a lot of material. This reading has been very beneficial to me in a variety of ways. Not only has it taken me through large portions of the Bible that I haven’t read in a long time, but also has helped me finish several books that I had left on the shelves.